Question #2 How often do you catch yourself comparing your home, job, income or parenting to someone else?
Let's see... I am a SAHM so the job one is out. Home, well sometimes but so far I'm good with that one. Parenting... only when someone criticizes me for something they know nothing about. So the one I am guilty of comparing myself to the most is income. Because I am a SAHM we have one income. I mostly find myself comparing us to other family members. I get upset when they can afford to go on vacations and travel the world. We tried to go visit my mother in law out of state last month and it just didn't work out. Even though my husband worked his buns off for 2 weeks it still wasn't enough we had to break the news to her and sadly to our children that we couldn't go. They were devastated. Why is it so easy for others and so hard for us? It took me 2 weeks to get over that. To get over that anger. And it is still in the back of my mind as I try to move forward.
On the special needs aspect, if we had the money I would be able to do a lot more for my son. I always wonder if what I'm doing is enough. I get so stressed about what he will be like when he is older, what will happen to him etc. that I can't sleep sometimes and get filled with anxiety. Then other times when he is smiling and happy, when he is in his element I feel joy.