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Monday, June 18, 2012

Final Day of 7 Days of Hope

I really hope you have been encouraged here. I really enjoyed this week we spent together. Please continue to read and comment. It's okay if you weren't able to during this past week. I will keep the posts up for the time being. Final question from Hope From The Weary Mom. Have you experienced hard times in the past? Share some of the things you've been through.

I think most of you have had things that happened in your life. Some good, some bad. We don't know why these things happen. But somehow we do get through them. And for me without God it could not be possible.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Chapter 6 Sometimes It Takes An Altar

Chapter 6 Sometimes It Takes An Altar

No one ever said it was going to be easy. Mothering is exhausting but also rewarding. Seeing the fruits of your labor makes any mother's heart sing. What always got me was when I would hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time. That was when thoughts like "this is really happening" or "this is for real" came flooding into my mind. Then excitement and planning etc. etc. "OVERDRIVE" I'm sure it happened to most of you too. I have always known God but I never have been a very spiritual person. To me, my relationship with God was a private thing. I didn't really want to talk about it. That was difficult for me. It was until I had my son that I grew closer to Him. That was what my son's "issues" have done. When I was at my wits end trying to help my child I went to Him. My altar is my bedroom. Sometimes I didn't want to face it anymore but I didn't walk away completely. I just needed a break and to refocus and then I was okay for awhile until the next time. No matter how weary I felt I could never leave my children. Have you ever just wanted to walk away?

"Altar's don't necessarily have to be in front of the church they can be kitchen tables or behind bathroom doors. Do you need to spend some time today bowed low with the Grace Giver?Do you need to lay down the weariness you have been wearing? He wants to meet you. He wants to whisper into your heart. He loves you and will never let you go. I promise your weary heart will sing once more with hope."

And beleive it is true.

Friday, June 15, 2012

Chapter 5 When You Just Want To Give Up

Chapter 5 Hope For the Weary Mom When You Just Want To Give Up  

"It's sweaty work- manual labor of the most intense kind because it requires more that just body. Mothering demands body,soul,mind and heart. And when the work doesn't pay off...when the pulling and tugging and coaxing and dragging and pushing and begging and praying don't seem to change anything we can be left empty, exhausted, worn down, wanting to just give up. Weary."

I have also felt that way, many, many times. It is like no matter what I did it wasn't good enough. I thought I was doing what I was supposed to do. Being home with my children, homeschooling etc. But every time I was doing a lesson with my daughter I kept getting interrupted and every time I tried to fold the laundry, I was interrupted, every time I tried to clean, cook, you know, the things housewives are SUPPOSED to be doing I was interrupted. And it wasn't always my kids doing the interrupting. I just couldn't take much more and I had a slight breakdown. For a weekend I gave up. Have you ever felt like that? Describe a time when you just wanted to give up.

All of you weary mom's!! Let's band together an make this commitment. 

I believe God's plans for me are good. Therefore I commit today that I will never give up on my family and I will never give up on god's ability to move in their hearts. With His help, I will take the next step of faith even when I feel I can't because He is the God of miracles."

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Chapter 4 Why You Can't Live At The Spa

Hope For The Weary Mom Why You Can't Live At the Spa.

I can count on one hand how many times I have ever gotten a massage. I have never gotten my nails done nor have I ever gotten a pedicure. I do get my hair done on occasion. Mostly just haircuts and I color it at home. Before I was married and had children I got my hair done at the salon. I really miss that sometimes because I was by myself and could relax. Now there is not many days like that. I try to take warm baths to relax but the tub at this house is too shallow. I do have a massage seat that I can put on a chair and I use that sometimes but that usually sparks interest in someone else then they want to do it too, staring at me the with bated breath the whole time. So I usually try to do things like that after everyone is in bed. There are times though that it can't wait until 10 pm. I get overwhelmed and feel like I am ready to burst. Since I am trying not to yell so much I just have to leave the room and go into my bedroom and lock the door. I don't love it but sometimes just those 5 to 10 minutes alone makes me feel a lot better. Other times it's not enough but I have to make sure my kids aren't setting the house on fire so I suck it up and come out. Usually when I go into my room like that they know I am not happy so they are usually good. So what about you? What things do you love to do to relieve stress?

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Chapter 3 Beer and Cigarettes?

Hope For the Weary Mom Chapter 3 Beer and Cigarettes?

I have to admit I was a bit taken a back when I read the title of this chapter. I totally understand what they meant now. I really can relate. My kids are 4 years apart but my son had me all to himself all that time until I had my daughter. So you can just imagine the wonderful adventure that was about to begin. The nursing story is almost what I went through every day for months. Each time I tried to nurse her my son would bounce on the bed so her head would bob up and down and of course she stopped nursing. So then he would stop bouncing then I would try to nurse again and so on. You get the picture. That wasn't the only thing he did either. Sometimes it would be tossing the cat litter around while I nursed, peeing on the floor right in front of me when I nursed. Yes, so loving he was. "SIGH" He just wasn't too happy that some other "little  person" was taking his place. And guess what? It hasn't ended. Not in the least bit.

Have you gotten to the place of a total breakdown? What did that look like for you?

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Chapter 2 When You Don't Measure Up

Question #2  How often do you catch yourself comparing your home, job, income or parenting to someone else? 

Let's see... I am a SAHM so the job one is out. Home, well sometimes but so far I'm good with that one. Parenting... only when someone criticizes me for something they know nothing about. So the one I am guilty of comparing myself to the most is income. Because I am a SAHM we have one income. I mostly find myself comparing us to other family members. I get upset when they can afford to go on vacations and travel the world. We tried to go visit my mother in law out of state last month and it just didn't work out. Even though my husband worked his buns off for 2 weeks it still wasn't enough we had to break the news to her and sadly to our children that we couldn't go. They were devastated. Why is it so easy for others and so hard for us? It took me 2 weeks to get over that. To get over that anger. And it is still in the back of my mind as I try to move forward.

On the special needs aspect, if we had the money I would be able to do a lot more for my son. I always wonder if what I'm doing is enough. I get so stressed about what he will be like when he is older, what will happen to him etc. that I can't sleep sometimes and get filled with anxiety. Then other times when he is smiling and happy, when he is in his element I feel joy.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Chapter 1 in Hope for the Weary Mom, When Gentle Words Won't Come. I find myself in this predicament alot. The older I get the less patient I get. I tend to sound harsh without meaning to. Especially to my family. Sometimes I just want to finish what I am doing without being interrupted. I want to process a thought without someone whining or wanting something. I don't want to have to keep repeating myself over and over and them "still" not getting it. I would really love if they can just "SEE" that I'm busy and not interrupt at all. I've said "I will help you when I am finished." SOOO many times I can't even count them anymore. So they should already know this. In my dreams!! Now it's your turn.

Be honest about the state of your heart and life right now. Are you dissapointed with the hand you've been dealt? Share some of your story.    

If you have any other questions about special needs homeschooling you may ask those as well. Would love to hear your story.               

Sunday, June 10, 2012

7 Days of Hope

Are you a mom? Do you feel that sometimes you just can't go on? Are you weary? Then please join me for "7 Days of Hope" June 12- June 18. Brooke McGlothlin from The MOB Society (mothers of boys) and Stacey Thacker from The MOD Squad (mothers of daughters) came together and wrote a fabulous e-book Hope For The Weary Mom Where God Finds You In Your Mess. And now are forming a wonderful group of ladies to bring hope to us mom's. I will be leading the special needs homeschooling group so please leave a comment below to let me know you are interested in joining.  

Monday, June 4, 2012

My weekend

We had a great weekend, went to an art show and to Karate Fun For A Cause. The art show was fun. I actually never been to one before but went to support a good friend of mine who was the featured artist there. Then the next day went to Karate Fun For A Cause. The kids got to learn some karate and I got to meet some new friends. I couldn't get my son out of the bounce house though and he had a hard time understanding it was time to go. They literally were closing, that's how long he was in there, lol. I guess you can say it was a "BIG" hit. I was actually supposed to be at my sister in laws wedding shower tin Oregon hat day but due to circumstances beyond my control it just didn't work out. I was really upset about it too but after seeing how much fun my kids were having I realized thet that was where I needed to be.